Last night I went to work out, I almost talked myself out of it because of the back problems, but I did it anyways. Yay for will power! I thought that I would start off on the stationary bike and if the back hurt too much, then I would quit there. Well, the bike was fine; in fact it seemed much easier yesterday than it has in the past.
So I did some weights after that, and even pushed myself to do more than usual. My back was fine the entire time, no wait… that’s a lie. It did hurt a little when I was working the ab / back machine, but I think that would be expected. My back actually felt much better when I left the gym.
After the workout I tried to take a short nap before my plans with Xoch, but someone woke me up with a text message, then shortly after Xoch called to confirm plans. CURSES! So I drove to Xoch’s apartment to pick her up and we went to the mall. We grabbed some food at Chik-Fil-A first and then wandered around for a bit. We didn’t wander for long because my pain came back and it was not comfortable to be walking around. Also, I had eaten too much and wanted to purge (not that I actually would do that because I could never intentionally gag myself to begin with, and the thought of vomiting seems worse than feeling sick).
As we were walking towards the down escalator to leave, we passed by Express (Women’s) and Xoch wanted to go in a look at a sweater (meanwhile I wanted to heave myself over the railings and plunge myself to death). We walked towards the store and I noticed Ivan (we used to date) in there with a male friend.
It’s weird the feeling that came over me. I froze in place and said, “Oh, we can’t go in there right now.” She asked why, and I when I told her who was in there, she quickly headed for the escalators. Thank GOD she understood. I kind of wanted to go in and talk to him, but I think the drama that would have ensued if Javier had been in there would not have been worth it. Javier is the boyfriend that Ivan keeps going back to, the same boyfriend that has on more than one occasion threatened to end my life and could probably do so with ease. Ivan has told me that Javier gets so angry when he sees me that he clenches his fists and starts shaking. Those are situations that I believe best to avoid.
We left the mall and I dropped Xoch off at home (she lives next door to the mall), and then went home. I got home and watched a little TV, then went to bed semi-early. I’m so ready for the weekend. I don’t have much planned. I’m going to a show with Brenna tomorrow night, and then I’m free for the rest of the weekend. YAYS! Oh, my hyacinths are finally started to sprout, it’s been six weeks since I bought them. I need to move them into stronger sunlight so help them sprout faster.
