Well my day started off with the adrenaline rush of waking up and realizing I was one hour and thirty seven minutes late for work. Then further compounding the adrenaline by confusing myself with, “Oh it’s ok, it’s Saturday. NO! It’s Friday! I’m late! No, wait… it is Saturday… It’s ok. OH NO! It is Friday!”
Work was dead and boring. That’s the problem of working in a business that is dependent on schools and universities; when they are closed are business is dead.
I soon tired of surfing the net and waiting for the phone to ring. I decided to take the afternoon off. Sure, why not? I came in late, why not leave early? Sounds like a plan to me.
The best part was that my boss had already fed me the perfect excuse. He had called earlier (before I got in) to talk to Dale to see where I was. He told her that he knew I hadn’t been feeling well this week and was worried.
Hey, thanx for the excuse. So I ran with it. I told him that I was indeed not feeling well and since business was so slow, maybe I should just go home. He agreed and told me to relax and try to enjoy my weekend. Oh sure.. thanx. I’ll do just that. And actually, I wasn’t feeling well. My allergies were crazy in that building.
So I went home and headed to the gym to get my workout on. I’m still not totally sure what it is I’m doing in there, but I put forth a good effort. I start on the treadmill. I put it on the highest incline and then do a brisk walk for thirty minutes while watching mindless TV.
I’m determined to build up these leg muscles. I want to be able to dance non-stop at RCC without getting tired. I want to leave there and still have energy. I want to wake up the next day and not feel like I’m going to fall down every time I stand up. I need this!
The workout went well. I came home, showered, and went to meet Leo at Eurway to shop for furniture. I had originally been informed that we were to be shopping for a couch, coffee table, and a night stand.
The adventure actually ended up being all about a coffee table. I tried to convince him that the smarter thing to do would be to wait until after he moved to buy the furniture, but he wasn’t having it. He wanted his new stuff now.
Did he get his new stuff? No. He couldn’t make a concrete decision on anything, and having not been to his place in a long time, I was of no help in telling him what would look good there. He has all new furniture that I have never seen. How was I to pick out things to match this new look? Nope, not happening.
We gave up on the shopping at went next door to Culver’s (?) to eat something. I hadn’t eaten anything all day, so I was ready for some grub. I was nervous about going to this place. Was it like a Deny’s, or a Luby’s? I can’t be eating at a cafeteria style place. Nope, not happening.
It actually turned out to be like a Hardee’s or DQ. Whatever. They had a hot ham and Swiss, and I was all over it. We went to sit at a big booth, large enough for 6 people, and Leo sat on the same side with me.
How odd is that? Two men sitting in a booth on the same side? He didn’t want to sit on the other side because the sun was blaring through the window, and I personally didn’t mind sharing my side with him, well… because I do think he totally hung the moon and all.
So there we sat, having our little meal, sitting all cozy on the same side. How odd that must have looked to everyone else trying to be eating up in there. I didn’t care, nor did it seem to bother him.
After dinner we came back to my place and snuggled up on the bed watching Nickelodeon, or Disney, I forget. He loves that stuff, and it’s kind of entertaining, so I don’t care.
Plus I just enjoy hanging out with him, so I don’t care what we watch. He was being oddly very sweet to me all day. He was making kissy faces, or blowing kisses to me, the entire time we were at Eurway and Culver’s. He was being very flirty and adorable. This is the Leo I fell in love with.
Then at my place he was all about the kissing on me and snuggling. I didn’t know what was going on, but I was so enjoying it. Why can’t he be like this all the time?
It’s this weird (but good) feeling like we’re back to where we were when things first started LAST April. The only difference is that now I realize that I will never fully have him. He will never be mine, and I’m doing so much better at being ok with that.
I won’t lie and say that I don’t still love him, or that I don’t wish he was my boyfriend, but I no longer get depressed thinking about how he isn’t mine. I no longer get depressed when he leaves, or when he doesn’t have time for me.
I’m ok with whatever time I have with him, and I’m ok with the idea of seeing other people. As much as I love being in a relationship, I’ve come to realize it’s not what I want right now.
I’m happy being single. I’m happy with my independence. I love being able to do whatever I want, when I want. I love being able to flirt with lots of boys and to just enjoy being wanted and have fun.
So after Leo left, Sammy came over and we were going to watch movies and enjoy some Makers and Coke. The movies didn’t start right away. We ended up enjoying some episodes of the Osbournes (I almost wrote Osmonds!) and our Makers and Coke.
Sammy is the best to chat with. I love having friends that I can have random fun conversations with. Sammy and I can talk about anything and not only make it interesting, but enjoy what each other has to say. We don’t always agree on everything, like our taste in men, music, and more. But the thing is that we understand each other, and we enjoy what each other has to bring to the table.
Leo and I don’t have lots of intellectual conversations, but we do have conversations that I enjoy, and he makes me laugh. On the way to my place I could see him in my rear view mirror, following me in his tricked out Lancer (which actually looks better than the Evo) and he was cracking me up, just being himself, silly Leo.
Anyway.. back to Sammy. So we had our convos, and he had some smokes on my balcony, then we watched About a Boy. I had seen it before, and he hadn’t. I had seen Hugh Grant in other movies before and never thought much of him. I wasn’t attracted and didn’t find him all that interesting. However, after this movie, I fell in love with him… and have loved him in everything since then.
Sammy left after the movie was over, and that brings me to now. I need to go to bed because my mother will be here at 10:30 tomorrow morning and I have a busy day ahead of me.
